It's cool y'all found me but I'm only using xxanga for philosophical BS I extrapolate...check out my live journal...that's where I post... "Mr_Sellofeign"

Love...

Life is nothing without someone to share it with. At least that's my thought on the matter. lol. Women are so fuckin weird. And being grounded is fucking stupid.

Loneliness...

is the worst feeling in the fuckin world. I think that's my worst fear: to die alone. Like my father will. And my step-Grandmother will. These last few weeks have been utter hell. No Alex and little love whatsoever. It fuckin sucks to be alone. And it sure as fuck doesn't help when you're fuckin grounded. I have so many pll I could love and be loved by but I can't fuckin call them to get a date b/c I'm fuckin gorunded. MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate life so fuckin much. Not cool at all. But the small things make it kinda worth it. Like petting a dog. Or hanging w/ ppl you don't even know or like just to be with a cute lil girl who lives in plano and you cant see her bc you're fuckinGROUNDED!!!!!!!!!!! mTHER FUCKER!!! My life is so great and yet I'm not happy at all. I can get laid at anytime. Stoned...anytime. See friends...anytime. Make friends...anyfuckintime. But that doesn't do any good if you aren't happy. BE HAPPY YOU FUCKING LITTLE WHITE INGRATE!!!!!!!!!!!! Suicide is no option. So I get to be miserable for a whole nother year....Whooopppiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!! fuckin world.

But special love to Ryan....she gave me somewhere to go  today...:)

ps...i hate xanga

Is it wrong to find someone else to get over a person? B/c that's what I've done.

when Lucy and I first met, she and I knew that there was something. I broke connections with her b/c she was easiest to do it with. I care about her alot. And I love Alexandra with nearly every cell in my body but thats it...it's over...I gotta get over her other wise I'll never be ok. So why not start now? Mary and I are now exclusive...It's a rebound but not. I've liked her since I first saw her. When I'm with her, her smile always makes me smile. And because she's always smileing when she's with me, so therefore, I'm always smileing. I don't know why I'm still here, rambling on. but for some reason I have explain it t someone. I haven't heard from Ryan. There a bunch of really cute sophomores...but I'm a senior...that's like pulling a Lowy...or Josh...not gonna ddo that...anyway. Today is friday the thirteenth...fun.I love you guys...thanks for listening.